| What was wrong with you? Supposing if you asked me, I do not have any good answer. The company was stable with paying Good money for me. I was well versed in the work. I was surrounded by the good coworker. The friends were also great. Everything seemed to be perfect for me. But I always had the feeling of anger.... .....Always. Although my anger toward to my boss, senior, or the custom of the company, I had already known that it wasn't true. The truth was that I was angry at myself. I took no action with having noticed that something is wrong, something that I have to do, I want to do. But I didn't start anything for it. Yes, I was angry at myself. Going around the world by myself..... What will be changed if I do it? Is it helpful to something? Is it a USEFUL idea? Actually, I did not care. I just wanted to finish the thing which I wanted to do. I just wanted to feel that I am always free. Also... - Hey, Can we beat others with it? - Can the highest results be achieved over the minimum labor? - Hey, stop considering others so much!-- see real world! - Hurry, hurry, hurry!! We are in business, you know?! - I did not like the way of a company. going Although I did not like their way, I had enjoyed the benefit as an office worker, without appreciation. Is this me and am I able to respect myself if I continue to be like this? No, no, no, no, no. ... the answer was "No way". The feeling of defeat, The powerless feeling, and victim consciousness which hangs around me. often ...I was loosing my energy. I realized that I was laughing more often slander the people. Complaining instead of do something. Self- pity. I even disliked that I was doing. Will I get used to living like this? Am I going to give up having any dreams? Am I going to spend all my precious time with complaining? Am I going to be scared of throwing away these benefits as a hopeless office worker? I was really scared of that I would become hopeless person. I wanted to DO live in my dream, even once, I wanted to try it. I had nothing to loose anyway. So, I quitted my job, gave up the benefits being office worker. I lost a lot of things even before starting the trip. Of cause I was nervous about leaving home country by myself. BUT If I live every day to its fullest, tomorrow I will be a bit wiser than I am today, right? So, Be brave! Start my day with hope and dreams!! ************ One day, one night, one moment My dream could be tomorrow one step, one fall, one falter East or West, Over earth or by ocean One way to be my journey This way could be my Book of Days I'll find my day maybe Far and Away, Far and Away From ' Book of the days', Enya |
 My favorite... sky picture from the airplane |